Falling in Love This Fall Season (Part 2)

Happy Tuesday Everyone!

A little something to make ya smile. Photo Credit: The hubby

Last week my handsome husband graciously wrote about how he found God's love through his trial.  

And so today, it's my turn! But first, in order for me to tell you guys my "falling in love with Jesus" story, you first need to know the back story. I must to warn you...I'm being very transparent in hopes to help heal and/or encourage anyone who is hurting. So please bare with me!

My story begins back in high school...

I was in a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad relationship that was sucking the life out of me. but at the same time, I was addicted to it. I kept finding excuse after excuse to stay, when something (which I now know was God) was telling me to leave. 

Unfortunately, I didn't listen right away. And before I managed to leave, I ended up having two abortions. As a result, my heart started turning cold and numb. I was broken, depressed, and occasionally had suicidal thoughts. I felt completely alone and to make matters worse, because of everything, my relationship with my dad was damaged (and I am definitely a daddy's girl).

Contrary to what people might think, I never really grew up with a solid knowledge of God...

In fact, there were times I questioned His existence. It wasn't until college that I learned all about His undying love for me. I ended up going to Liberty University, which was the last place I wanted to be but the only choice I had. It was there I found a group of people who, through God, changed my life forever. They prayed for me, they taught me about The Word, and helped me see God for who He is; igniting a love that I never knew before. A love that healed me from my past (it wasn't instantaneous, but healing of my heart and mind happened!)

It was from there I decided to fully give my life to Jesus. Allowing Him to guide me through this life and letting Him love me the way He says He does. And in turn I do my best to love Him back (though it's no where near the same) by reading and listening to His word, and being obedient to what He asks of me. 

It's THE most special and important relationship I could ever have.

He loves me more than I could ever comprehend!

He's so kind, honest, trustworthy, faithful, and His grace towards me is never ending—even during the times where I've made mistakes and forgotten about Him— And I have all of eternity to continue getting to know Him and having my love for Him grow! 

Just like any relationship, it's not always easy.

I've gone through many dry seasons where my relationship with God was stagnant, and I couldn't feel or hear him. However, the big difference is that God never goes away or gives up on me. He and His love stays exactly the same. I'm the one who stops listening, and stops paying attention. It really is an "it's me, not you" kind of thing, because it really is me.

Having a relationship with God is both simple and complex.

Because He is sooo big, it's impossible to grasp all that He is. But one thing's for sure, that there is no one like Him and falling in love with Him is the best decision I ever made. He's where true healing, love, peace and satisfaction lies.

So here I am, 6 years later...

with a wonderful husband and super sweet 7 month old son, who both bring joy to my heart. AND a completely mended relationship with my papa bear! 

I was hurt by my past, but through the hurt and pain I found a love that I never knew was possible. And I know you can too, but only if you let Jesus into your heart.